(My) Sickness Feels Like Home

Basically.

Fri, 24 May 2013 02:11:06 -0400

Basically.

If I had the perfect body

Fri, 24 May 2013 02:01:43 -0400

If I had the perfect body

5/25

Fri, 24 May 2013 01:57:00 -0400

“I hate when I cry like this. It brings up a lot of feelings and memories I guess I normally suppress. I start to hate myself. Then, I realize I’m being stupid for crying and feel pathetic and ashamed because I have no reason to be sad. But that only makes me feel worse about myself so I cry more. I eventually get to the point where I am now where I realize I’m being too dramatic and self deprecating and need to grow up. Which ultimately makes me come to the conclusion that I’m too fucked up to be in this relationship. I don’t want anyone to see this side of me. It’s pathetic and annoying. That’s not how I want people to think of me.
But every time I say I’m too fucked up to be with you, you always tell me that we’ll get through it together. Even when I beg you, you won’t let me leave. Why won’t you let me go?”

texts to him.

It's just a reminder every month

Fri, 24 May 2013 01:49:17 -0400

I actually wasn't expecting this to happen again

Fri, 24 May 2013 01:40:46 -0400

Maybe it’s because I wasn’t thinking about it. This is the 6th time now, I don’t have the energy to argue and try anymore. It’s too exhausting having to explain why this hurts, why it makes me feel less important, why I feel disrespected, etc. Maybe I should just let go of him before next month so I don’t have to deal with this again.

This is just another example of how no one respects my needs and walk all over me.

I’m just really, really, disappointed.

worthless-sadness: 50-shades-of-suicide: oh my holy mother of...

Wed, 22 May 2013 00:48:12 -0400

worthless-sadness:

50-shades-of-suicide:

oh my holy mother of jesus… this post.

I will ❤

"If you want to kill yourself, kill what you don’t like. I had an old self that I killed. You can..."

Tue, 21 May 2013 17:33:18 -0400

“If you want to kill yourself, kill what you don’t like. I had an old self that I killed. You can kill yourself too, but that doesn’t mean you got to stop living.”

- Vargus, Archie’s Final Project (via uglypoem)

"How many times have people used a pen or paintbrush because they couldn’t pull the trigger?"

Tue, 21 May 2013 17:32:48 -0400

“How many times have people used a pen or paintbrush because they couldn’t pull the trigger?”

- Virginia Woolf, from Selected Essays (via lonur)

Photo

Wed, 15 May 2013 19:40:01 -0400

"Are you physically full or emotionally full?"

Tue, 14 May 2013 17:58:07 -0400

edrecoveryprobs:

(ifimamermaid)

bahahaha

yanilavigne: (Quotes here)

Tue, 14 May 2013 16:49:36 -0400

yanilavigne:

(Quotes here)

this semester

Tue, 14 May 2013 16:47:38 -0400

this semester

Photo

Tue, 14 May 2013 16:46:42 -0400

There's a huge disconnect between my desires and ambitions as a photographer and the amount of emergency I put in to being a student.

Fri, 10 May 2013 00:03:43 -0400

Sometimes I think my eating disorder is the only think I can put energy into and stay committed too.

I don’t want to be around people. I just want to disappear. No one ever notices me or ever...

Tue, 07 May 2013 07:23:07 -0400

I don’t want to be around people. I just want to disappear. No one ever notices me or ever wants just me. Im replaced so fucking easily every fucking time which means I’m completely worthless. I don’t want to deal with this anymore. I want to become invisible, even more than I already am. I’m don’t want to feel rejected by every fucking group I hang out with anymore. I just want to be alone. At least I want me there.

Photo

Sat, 04 May 2013 22:44:59 -0400

Photo

Sun, 28 Apr 2013 20:05:56 -0400

Photo

Sun, 28 Apr 2013 20:05:42 -0400

Photo

Sun, 28 Apr 2013 20:05:15 -0400

66545) I don't know whether to feel more guilty when I eat or when I don't.

Sun, 28 Apr 2013 20:00:44 -0400